I feel so alone and depressed. I don’t even know why anymore? All I want to do is cry but I just can’t. I already take depression preventative pills why aren’t they working? I try to not make it show at school but I have a feeling it’s going to start.
Prom was an amazing evening. I hadn’t had that much fun in quite some time. Yes I did to with my best friend Kayla and we decided that we were going to make that night legit so I paid for everything and treated her like a princess. The bad part about doing all of this is that it reminded me that though that night was real, I’m still single. The entire evening to me was a constant reminder that I am still alone and it really hurt. Ever since that night all I have wanted is a girl who I can treat so special all the time and. It have to worry about it ruining a friendship or making things awkward. Luckily that night nothing was awkward and we got real into it all but there was still that fear that things would be award. I want a real relationship. And no I’m not saying I do with Kayla.
Me trying
So I go to her house and tag her car saying will you go to prom with me. I also filled the car with cookies I made. I texted her the next mourning and said her something’s up with your car. She replied I saw it. I yelled and threw my phone at the wall knowing that my efforts had gone to waste. I replied saying well there are cookies in the front. She said she saw them. Still not a direct yes or no. Any idea how upset I was at this point? I replied with so??? And of course it couldn’t have just been a no it had to be about how she likes somebody else but what I did was really sweet. I just wanted to shoot something but I have no gun. This is the 6th time in a row this has happened to me people so I have an excuse to bitch about it!
Suck it
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